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The strange things about which I care.
So today begins the first day of my maternity leave. Feeling unsure about what people do when they are off of work, not sick, and not on holiday, I have already begun to enjoy myself. While I am waiting for my son to decide he wants to enter this world, I am preparing his home, taking a break, and getting back to the side of myself that I like. I have so much thankfulness for my job, but it is the place I spend the most time and almost like the least. I guess wanting food in my son’s belly helps me to like work a little better, but I still have to admit that the house is a lot more peaceful than work.
I am so ready to meet Daniel. I kinda think that I already know his personality and peculiarites. Not sure if this will come true or not, but I think when I see him for the first time, he may not seem so strange. It seems parallel to a penpal or internet relationship. I have learned his likes and dislikes, and he has heard me through all the feelings and emotions, from laughter to tears, he has felt what I have felt, even though I have never actually seen him. And I don’t think he’ll look too stange either. I bet he will look just like his father. That would be great. I especially hope he has his father’s eyes, hazel with long, long eyelashes. Mmmmm.
I made Danny breakfast this morning and packed him a lunch. It does not take as much will power to wake in the morning when I look forward to the days activities. I liked making his food for the day. I didn’t have to because he does not expect it from me. He would remain just fine with eating lunch from work, but I know he appreciates it, and that fills my heart with happiness. Learning to be a mom and exploring more sides of being a wife should already grows content on me.
…with much curiosity, Daniel, I will see you in a few days.
